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Dark River was ok, but I've seen the subject matter dealt with better.
Jawbone was a bit meh.
Mug was a really good Polish film. Started off funny, ended up quite sad.

I really liked it, despite the crying.

Lean on Pete... Another film that touched a nerve and made me cry.

I saw Fishtank when it first came out, but haven't seen the other one.

I just watched 'Calm with horses'. At first it looked like it might be just another violent small town gangster movie, but it actually really drew me in thanks to some great acting from the lead character, and actually left me pretty choked up by the end. That might be partly down to my own issues, but it was a good film.

The ONLY benefit to being unable to work at the moment is that I'm able to catch up on all the films I've been wanting to watch and in some cases had forgotten about...
This was phenomenal!

I didn't get anything. It had been one of those weeks and I just wanted to get home. 🙁

Hey Tim...
To quote myself from another thread...
"And like a fucking idiot, because of a mixture of adrenaline and anger, I didn't realise how badly I was injured until I started riding home, having not taken ANY details from the driver. So I fucked myself even more"

So I don't think much is going to happen there.
My own fault, but I wasn't really thinking straight at the time.

I remember it well Tim... Your company was truly appreciated. As is your donation. ❤️

Same goes for everyone else who has donated. I can't really say how much it means to me.
I have a habit of distancing myself from people, and it's very humbling to see so much generosity and so many good wishes from people I haven't seen in years, and strangers I've never met.
I do miss the times when I got to see many of the people on this forum in person.

Another belter!
https://youtu.be/kYcTPZpgrx0

Incredible acting from the lead, and an utterly heartbreaking film.
https://youtu.be/kW6gWNs6-zU

A fantastic film and really moving.
https://youtu.be/Yp9PPAv9PyU

Completely unused, still in the packaging.
£40 for the pair, collected from Hackney

That's what you would do if you were 'you'.
Please remember that when I rented this place I wasn't living alone. I was with my partner. I put everything I had into this place. Every penny I had from my own earnings, my family, and the amount I got from the BRP gofundme went to building my workshop, buying new machines etc with the intention of starting BRP properly again.
I took on a second job to allow me to fund the design and prototyping of the new bags without having to rely on the generosity of other people. At that point things were really starting to look up. I was motivated, and feeling more positive than I had in a long time.
It's unfortunate that literally a couple of weeks after starting the second job, lockdown was announced and I lost my main job with one week notice.
I lost my main source of income for six months, and even now I'm not back to my full hours.
I sold bikes, music equipment, all sorts of things in order to keep hold of the flat, because without it I would lose not only my home, but my workshop, and my hope too.
It wasn't an easy time for people then. I had no benefits, or furlough, or savings to fall back on.
If you have any kind of mental health issues it's important to have something to occupy your mind and be able to focus on. For me at the time this was BRP.
The reason my rent is so high now is because my relationship suffered as I suffered, and so I have been living alone since April. My outgoings doubled overnight. I have been working and fighting so hard all year because I can't fit everything I have here in a regular flat. This is a warehouse conversion. Very open layout. Which is specifically why I chose this space.
If I give it up I lose everything. I can't afford a separate flat and workshop. Flats of this size are now even more expensive than this one. I already renovated this place from top to bottom, and my workshop has been built from scratch to fit this space.
The thought of giving it all up, putting my workshop and studio into storage, and renting a regular single person flat, while property continues to increase in price around me has a worse effect on my mental state than working 2 jobs, six days a week to keep what I have already built up. I would still have to work just as many hours to try and save up enough money to rent a place big enough to fit my workshop in further down the line anyway. By which point the prices will be even higher.
Seeing this workshop every day, seeing what I have achieved, and seeing how hard I am prepared to work to keep it is what keeps me going. The hope that at some point I'll get my shit together and make it all work.
I understand that to you and others it might look like a waste of life, but believe me...to me it's saving my life.
I understand that other people see 'solutions', and all the things that 'they would do if they were me'...but my mind moves in its own way, at its own pace.
The fact that I'm still trying, still working hard, and haven't just accepted defeat makes me realise that in some ways I'm getting better.
Yes I have self harmed again recently. Yes I've had suicidal thoughts. But I haven't given up.
I still have enough of myself left to see a future, and that hasn't always been the case.
xxx

I'm honestly humbled by everyone's help and support. It really does make a huge difference at a time where I've been feeling particularly low.
Extra special thanks to Amy and Gav...you have been such a big help over the last year.
But huge thanks to everyone who has donated too. I truly do appreciate it. xxx

Regarding the rent situation, it's exactly as @bens0n says.
I had a one year contract which rolled once it ended.
But to be fair to my landlord, he didn't increase my rent since then.
He now wants to set up a new contract and increase the rent to be more in line with the other flats.
It's just a pisser because he's increasing it by such a large amount in one go.
I'm trying to negotiate with him to reduce the increase a bit.
It's just typical of my luck that I get a £305 increase and then get hit by a car in the same week.

I just want to say a HUGE thank you to @RunRabbitRun for organising a gofundme to help me out, and to all those who have donated too.
I really do appreciate it so much. I'm trying so hard to stay above water at the moment, but it's been an endless flow of shit news and disasters this year.
Thank you all so much for the support. Xxx

Not with one arm.
I also don't have all the materials I need.

To give you an idea of where I'm at right now...
After my girlfriend moved out, my rent doubled, so I've been working six days a week all year since April just to try and not lose this flat, because if I do, I lose my workshop too. There is no way I can afford a separate flat and a big enough workshop, and I basically only have one bedroom left, so I can't move anyone else in, and I'm not sure I could handle a stranger living here anyway.
So after struggling to cover everything for the best part of a year, I got an email this week from my landlord to say that he wants to put my rent up by £305 per month, from January, taking my rent alone up to £2000 a month.
So I was just about to ask my boss if there is any chance of me working Sundays too, so seven days a week...
Then last night I was hit by a car on my way home from work, and now I have a broken collarbone, which means I'll be unable to work for at least six weeks.
I have no savings whatsoever, and now I'll most likely have no income.
And like a fucking idiot, because of a mixture of adrenaline and anger, I didn't realise how badly I was injured until I started riding home, having not taken ANY details from the driver. So I fucked myself even more.
To say my head is in the worst place it's been for years is a bit of an understatement.
Sorry, but I don't see anything happening with the bags for a good while. :(

There's a black body SP1200 on ebay at the moment for £5800!! 😱

I guess I was thinking more like a couple of thousand dollars. Just based on the kind of prices they were selling for just a few years ago.
Same thing happened with the Linndrum.
I've still never forgiven myself for missing out on Bronski Beats own Linndrum for a grand on ebay just a few years ago, and then suddenly they started to show up in a few interviews with various producers and almost overnight the price doubled, then tripled, and now people charge up to £4500 for a clean second hand one. 😱

Gotta say, it's a bit disappointing that the reissue of the SP1200 is almost as expensive as the 2nd hand price for an original one. 🙁
When it was announced I was stupidly thinking "well that should help to drop the price of 2nd hand units to a more sensible level"... Guess not now.

Watched it tonight...
Fuck me, I thought it was a great film!
Thankfully I didn't read anything apart from the brief description in the Prince Charles cinema email a few weeks ago. Totally agree...don't read ANYTHING about it or watch any trailer before seeing it!

I've been waiting to see this one.

Looking forward to this one!
https://youtu.be/lIeG0gFwZg0

Although, my front rack ends are permanently obscured by the bag, so maybe it's a less common problem when you can actually see them. :)

My only concern with lights in the front rack ends is that I already lost one of the front plugs in my first couple of weeks of owning the bike, and have never replaced it, because I'm constantly knocking the rack end into doors getting the bike into my flat. :( I fear the lights wouldn't last long.