No need to apologise, I'm just jealous! It's all a matter of perspective. I can't even dream of being in your out-of-shape state, but that doesn't mean that it shouldn't bother you that you're not where you'd want to be! I think you should be kind to yourself, sounds like you've had a reasonably busy five months (!) and you know what you need to do to get back where you want to be, it's just finding the time - not easy for anyone but especially not with a new job AND a baby. I'm looking forward to reading about how it all goes for you.