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Thanks for this Ed - this insight makes me feel better. I think what was enraging me most was that I was feeling like I should have just let them go instead of being seen as displaying aggressive and challenging behaviour by "racing". I was worrying about my reaction being wrong. I suspect this is my subconscious doing what it's been raised to do too.
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I'm very sorry to says but you're aboustely right, it is indeed our ego and most definitely the fact you're a woman.
I recall having similar train of though a couple of years ago, for some reason when a man overtook me, I think "fair play, he look pretty on form and work hard to get this fast".
But when a women overtook me, subconsciously I think "a girl overtook me? I'm that slow? I can't have that!", mainly because I was raise being taught that women are inherently weaker than the men, and if they overtook you, it mean you're not even fit enough to breathe, even if it's Laura Trott!
I no longer have that subconscious though anymore, and I have a better riding relationship with my girlfriend (which I never realised it was an issues in the past), I acknowledged she's better at me in certain discipline, I can barely keep up with her on descent and as a resulted crashed badly!
So yes, it's our ego that got the best of us thinking that train of thought, I can only apologise for that and hope that there'll be less in the future.